You could have been honest with what you want
You do not have to be so sneaky
You do not have to hide anything from me
For you are you
For I will do anything for you
Cos you've always been someone I respect
Cos you've always been someone I like
Cos you're one good mate
But not anymore
Ritey mate, you chose to do it this way
You asked for it
Things will not be the same again.
But I doubt you even care at all!
19 October 2010
29 August 2010
天天想你
A classic late 80's tune, but this girl 魏如昀 and her band has breathed a new life to it. A meaningful song sung with a sincere voice. Can't think of anything else to describe other than - SUPERB!
天天想你
詞：陳樂融 曲：陳志遠
當我佇立在窗前 你愈走愈遠
我的每一次心跳 你是否聽見
當我徘徊在深夜 你在我心田
你的每一句誓言 迴盪在耳邊
隱隱約約閃動的雙眼
藏著你的羞怯
加深我的思念
兩顆心的交界
你一定會看見
只要你願意走向前
天天想你 天天問自己
到什麼時候才能告訴你
天天想你 天天守住一顆心
把我最好的愛留給你
天天想你
詞：陳樂融 曲：陳志遠
當我佇立在窗前 你愈走愈遠
我的每一次心跳 你是否聽見
當我徘徊在深夜 你在我心田
你的每一句誓言 迴盪在耳邊
隱隱約約閃動的雙眼
藏著你的羞怯
加深我的思念
兩顆心的交界
你一定會看見
只要你願意走向前
天天想你 天天問自己
到什麼時候才能告訴你
天天想你 天天守住一顆心
把我最好的愛留給你
25 August 2010
A Pre-26th Birthday Thought
Turning 26 soon, very soon...
That's more than a quarter of a century old,
An important year
A future defining year
A career defining year
A ME-defining year indeed
I've done enough to be proud of myself
I've done more than enough to make others proud
I've done enough to make others happy
Have I done enough to make myself happy?
Let's see...
I think I do treat myself well
I bought myself presents - everyday is birthday, christmas, valentine, new year
I feed myself well
I dress myself well
I never hesitate to take myself to see the world
I never hesitate to sacrifice myself for myself.
So, in conclusion
My last 25 years have been very ME-orientated
Everything is diverted to ME and myself
Selfish? No
Self admiring? Probably
Self indulgent? Most probably
Self loving? Defintiely!
I think it's time for a change...
I shall half the ME
I shall clear some space for another YOU
So when YOU come around,
YOU will move straight in,
To complete the now half-ME
To become a YOU-and-ME
So, where are YOU?
Give me a shout if you are hiding nearby :)
That's more than a quarter of a century old,
An important year
A future defining year
A career defining year
A ME-defining year indeed
I've done enough to be proud of myself
I've done more than enough to make others proud
I've done enough to make others happy
Have I done enough to make myself happy?
Let's see...
I think I do treat myself well
I bought myself presents - everyday is birthday, christmas, valentine, new year
I feed myself well
I dress myself well
I never hesitate to take myself to see the world
I never hesitate to sacrifice myself for myself.
So, in conclusion
My last 25 years have been very ME-orientated
Everything is diverted to ME and myself
Selfish? No
Self admiring? Probably
Self indulgent? Most probably
Self loving? Defintiely!
I think it's time for a change...
I shall half the ME
I shall clear some space for another YOU
So when YOU come around,
YOU will move straight in,
To complete the now half-ME
To become a YOU-and-ME
So, where are YOU?
Give me a shout if you are hiding nearby :)
拋物線 by 蔡健雅 - Trajectory of Love
One of the best songs, and my favourite recently. Wonderful melody with a marvellously clever and poetic lyrics. Tanya sang it so beautifully, telling you with all her heart about the trajectory of love...
拋物線 Trajectory of Love
Lyrics and my translation attempt:
我確實說 我這樣說 我不在乎結果
I'm saying it truthfully, I'm saying it this way - I don't care about the ending
我對你說 我有把握 成功例子好多
I'm saying this to you, I am confident about it - There are too many successful stories
人們虛假又造作 總愛得不溫不火
Human beings are hypocritical and pretentious - They always love with moderation
我們用真心就不會有差錯
If we are sincere, there will be no mistake
我沒想過我會難過 你竟然離開我
I've never thought that I will be sad, but you've actually left me
愛沿著 拋物線
Love follows its trajectory
離幸福 總降落得差一點
It always miss happiness by a little
流著血 心跳卻不曾被心痛削減
We are bleeding, but our heartbeats have never been suppressed by hearaches
真真切切
With honesty and truthfulness
青春的 拋物線
Youth's trajectory curve
把未來 始於相遇的地點
It predicts the future, by extrapolating the starting point
至高後才了解
When you've reached a certain height, you will realise...
世上月圓月缺只是錯覺
The phases of the moon seen on the ground, is only an illusion
我好想說 我只想說 我不要這後果
I really want to say, I only want to say - I don't want this ending
可是你說 相對來說 走開是種解脫
But you said, on the contrary - Leaving is a relief
當初親密的動作 變成當下的閃躲
When intimate gestures becomes avoidance
感情的過程出了什麼錯
What is the flaw in the progress of this relationship?
我沒想過我會難過 你終於離開我
I never expect to be this down, when you leave me
至高後才了解
When you've reached a certain height, you will realise...
世上月圓月缺只是錯覺
The phases of the moon seen on the ground, is only an illusion
拋物線 Trajectory of Love
Lyrics and my translation attempt:
我確實說 我這樣說 我不在乎結果
I'm saying it truthfully, I'm saying it this way - I don't care about the ending
我對你說 我有把握 成功例子好多
I'm saying this to you, I am confident about it - There are too many successful stories
人們虛假又造作 總愛得不溫不火
Human beings are hypocritical and pretentious - They always love with moderation
我們用真心就不會有差錯
If we are sincere, there will be no mistake
我沒想過我會難過 你竟然離開我
I've never thought that I will be sad, but you've actually left me
愛沿著 拋物線
Love follows its trajectory
離幸福 總降落得差一點
It always miss happiness by a little
流著血 心跳卻不曾被心痛削減
We are bleeding, but our heartbeats have never been suppressed by hearaches
真真切切
With honesty and truthfulness
青春的 拋物線
Youth's trajectory curve
把未來 始於相遇的地點
It predicts the future, by extrapolating the starting point
至高後才了解
When you've reached a certain height, you will realise...
世上月圓月缺只是錯覺
The phases of the moon seen on the ground, is only an illusion
我好想說 我只想說 我不要這後果
I really want to say, I only want to say - I don't want this ending
可是你說 相對來說 走開是種解脫
But you said, on the contrary - Leaving is a relief
當初親密的動作 變成當下的閃躲
When intimate gestures becomes avoidance
感情的過程出了什麼錯
What is the flaw in the progress of this relationship?
我沒想過我會難過 你終於離開我
I never expect to be this down, when you leave me
至高後才了解
When you've reached a certain height, you will realise...
世上月圓月缺只是錯覺
The phases of the moon seen on the ground, is only an illusion
22 July 2010
August 2009 - July 2010
It's been a while since I graduated. Exactly 1 year and 2 weeks ago. Reflecting back I've achieved quite a lot in the past 1 year and I think I am obliged to do a short summary to celebrate this wonderful year.
Transition.
From a student to a doctor. It was not easy, yet not too difficult. What we learned in medical school is useful to a certain extent, but most of the skills that were required in the past 1 year were not all thought in medical school. Well, knowing how to take a history, physical examination, procedures, basic medical knowledge... these probably contribute to 1/3 of the job, the rest of it were picked up along the way. Being able to call myself a doctor, I need to step out of the shoes of being a medical student to take charge of things. It was painful to walk barefoot in the beginning but soon I found my perfect boots and have been hiking the ups and downs with ease.
A change of scene.
Leicester good fun for the past 5 years. Small, close-knit, everyone knows everyone. Moving to Birmingham was quite a change. Being a much bigger city it is quite scary to move all the way not knowing what to expect. I'm always the lucky one though. Last minute house hunting, and I viewed the one and only one which I decided to take it on the spot and moved in 2 days later. Great landlords A&S have been looking after me like mum and dad, bless them! Being in a house of non-medics, with a very optimistic perspective of life (and also hard-core party animals) is a liberation and a celebration of bidding goodbye to student life. I settled in pretty easily. Birmingham - my third home!
New people.
A&S the perfect landlords and housemates and their bunch of interesting and ever-cheerful and friendly friends are the first big welcome present in Birmingham. At work, being foreign trained (non-birmingham graduate), it took a while to blend in and to get to know the rest. Thanks to lovely H, my work partner for 8 months (2 jobs in a row), I get to know some of the most fabulous, smart, posh yet down to earth people. And West 2 - it's the place to nurture professional contacts/relationships and friendships althought the actual job itself was lousy for educational purpose. H, A, J, C - my lovely barbie dolls of West 2, can't imagine the 4 months without you girls! And the rest of the F1s in QE - I've learned a lot from all of you great people, thanks!
Hard work vs Learning vs Progress
Started off to try to prove that I'm not just another dump junior doctor with limited resource, to fighting stress in a highly challenging job, to filtering out all the nasty contacts to make life easy, to knowing the right place, right time, right people, to using little tricks and lies that makes things work and makes everyone happy, to a semi-acomplished well equipped, well connected, well motivated junior doctor who proves to be an important asset in any team he is in... I've channeled in quite a lot of effort. Staying late to solve complicated cases for job satisfaction (or plain frustration at times), taking humiliation in pride, learning from mistakes, turning anger into motivation, all the ups and downs turned a year of ordinary FY1 training into a character building important foundation in a lifelong career.
Career Aspiration
People who knows me would know that I've considered - Diabetes/Endocrine, Paediatrics, Ophthalmology, Dermatology, Oncology, and finally Radiology for a career. Well, a year of exposure and immersion in the reality of medicine has finalised my choice - Radiology. The only challenge now is to get a training post! 20:1 competition ratio, second in the list of all specialties (after ophthalmology)... but i'm ready for the challenge. I've found the path and i've venture a little down the path, planted some seeds along the way, which I believe will soon blossom and flourish! Have faith and work hard - nothing is impossible.
Chill and Fun
Having a regular income is such a blessing. Good food, drinks, party, shopping, holidays etc. Been on a few holidays, went home 2 times... life couldn't be much blissful ;)
Future
Well... that's unpredictable but there's already a plan. Work hard and play hard along the way, can't think of anything better than that!
Transition.
From a student to a doctor. It was not easy, yet not too difficult. What we learned in medical school is useful to a certain extent, but most of the skills that were required in the past 1 year were not all thought in medical school. Well, knowing how to take a history, physical examination, procedures, basic medical knowledge... these probably contribute to 1/3 of the job, the rest of it were picked up along the way. Being able to call myself a doctor, I need to step out of the shoes of being a medical student to take charge of things. It was painful to walk barefoot in the beginning but soon I found my perfect boots and have been hiking the ups and downs with ease.
A change of scene.
Leicester good fun for the past 5 years. Small, close-knit, everyone knows everyone. Moving to Birmingham was quite a change. Being a much bigger city it is quite scary to move all the way not knowing what to expect. I'm always the lucky one though. Last minute house hunting, and I viewed the one and only one which I decided to take it on the spot and moved in 2 days later. Great landlords A&S have been looking after me like mum and dad, bless them! Being in a house of non-medics, with a very optimistic perspective of life (and also hard-core party animals) is a liberation and a celebration of bidding goodbye to student life. I settled in pretty easily. Birmingham - my third home!
New people.
A&S the perfect landlords and housemates and their bunch of interesting and ever-cheerful and friendly friends are the first big welcome present in Birmingham. At work, being foreign trained (non-birmingham graduate), it took a while to blend in and to get to know the rest. Thanks to lovely H, my work partner for 8 months (2 jobs in a row), I get to know some of the most fabulous, smart, posh yet down to earth people. And West 2 - it's the place to nurture professional contacts/relationships and friendships althought the actual job itself was lousy for educational purpose. H, A, J, C - my lovely barbie dolls of West 2, can't imagine the 4 months without you girls! And the rest of the F1s in QE - I've learned a lot from all of you great people, thanks!
Hard work vs Learning vs Progress
Started off to try to prove that I'm not just another dump junior doctor with limited resource, to fighting stress in a highly challenging job, to filtering out all the nasty contacts to make life easy, to knowing the right place, right time, right people, to using little tricks and lies that makes things work and makes everyone happy, to a semi-acomplished well equipped, well connected, well motivated junior doctor who proves to be an important asset in any team he is in... I've channeled in quite a lot of effort. Staying late to solve complicated cases for job satisfaction (or plain frustration at times), taking humiliation in pride, learning from mistakes, turning anger into motivation, all the ups and downs turned a year of ordinary FY1 training into a character building important foundation in a lifelong career.
Career Aspiration
People who knows me would know that I've considered - Diabetes/Endocrine, Paediatrics, Ophthalmology, Dermatology, Oncology, and finally Radiology for a career. Well, a year of exposure and immersion in the reality of medicine has finalised my choice - Radiology. The only challenge now is to get a training post! 20:1 competition ratio, second in the list of all specialties (after ophthalmology)... but i'm ready for the challenge. I've found the path and i've venture a little down the path, planted some seeds along the way, which I believe will soon blossom and flourish! Have faith and work hard - nothing is impossible.
Chill and Fun
Having a regular income is such a blessing. Good food, drinks, party, shopping, holidays etc. Been on a few holidays, went home 2 times... life couldn't be much blissful ;)
Future
Well... that's unpredictable but there's already a plan. Work hard and play hard along the way, can't think of anything better than that!
09 February 2010
Take me HOME!!!
Country road,
Take me home,
To a place,
Where I belong.
Roti canai,
Nasi lemak,
Take me home,
Country road!
Take me home,
To a place,
Where I belong.
Roti canai,
Nasi lemak,
Take me home,
Country road!
Gimme some morphine!
I'm blessed that I've never need to see a dentist regularly. Back in school time, I was one of those that the school dentist would smile and say 'well done, you've been a good boy who brush your teeth well' never paid to see any dentist in my life except for a scaling and polishing mini-do last year for the guilt of not been to a dentist for 24 years. I still stick to the ritual of brushing my teeth twice daily and thought that would keep me away from dentist for life. But apparently not....
I've been having this intermittent flare up of mild ache that lasts for 1-2 days in the lower left gum deep in the oral cavity, presumely due to the on-and-off growth of the wisdom tooth. I normally ignored it as it was never too bad and would disappear in 2 days time. However I have this toothache again since last Saturday, which had got worse over days. Took some paracetamol then ibuprofen which worked magic in the beginning. Then i stepped up to cocodamol (thanks fiona for the generous box of cocodamol from the drug cupboard!). It's been day four now, the pain hasn't settled but got so bad that I stuggled to sleep last night despite overdosing myself with all the painkiller. At one point I wish I could dig that culprit out with a screwdriver! I want some morphine, if not knock me out with some zoplicone or benzos. Arggghhhhhh!
Helplessly with this pain I searched on the Internet for a local dentist to go to the very next morning. I checked out wisdom tooth extraction procedure too. Was shocked that a tooth extraction under general anaesthesia costs between 500-1000pds in the private dental surgeries! Called up a nhs dentist nearby but they are fully booked till afternoon. So my next best option was to go to the Birmingham dental hospital in city centre.
Here I am, waiting for my turn too see my dentist. All I wish is for him/her to tell me that it's just a simple inflammation and that I don't need any extraction. Heart rate racing at 120, palpitations so strong that I can hear, blood pressure presumely sky high... First proper visit to the dentist, now I finally understand what's White coat syndrome! Let's see what's the verdict later!
I've been having this intermittent flare up of mild ache that lasts for 1-2 days in the lower left gum deep in the oral cavity, presumely due to the on-and-off growth of the wisdom tooth. I normally ignored it as it was never too bad and would disappear in 2 days time. However I have this toothache again since last Saturday, which had got worse over days. Took some paracetamol then ibuprofen which worked magic in the beginning. Then i stepped up to cocodamol (thanks fiona for the generous box of cocodamol from the drug cupboard!). It's been day four now, the pain hasn't settled but got so bad that I stuggled to sleep last night despite overdosing myself with all the painkiller. At one point I wish I could dig that culprit out with a screwdriver! I want some morphine, if not knock me out with some zoplicone or benzos. Arggghhhhhh!
Helplessly with this pain I searched on the Internet for a local dentist to go to the very next morning. I checked out wisdom tooth extraction procedure too. Was shocked that a tooth extraction under general anaesthesia costs between 500-1000pds in the private dental surgeries! Called up a nhs dentist nearby but they are fully booked till afternoon. So my next best option was to go to the Birmingham dental hospital in city centre.
Here I am, waiting for my turn too see my dentist. All I wish is for him/her to tell me that it's just a simple inflammation and that I don't need any extraction. Heart rate racing at 120, palpitations so strong that I can hear, blood pressure presumely sky high... First proper visit to the dentist, now I finally understand what's White coat syndrome! Let's see what's the verdict later!
02 January 2010
Pre-boxing day, boxing day, and post-boxing day shopaholism
A preliminary list of my winter 2009/10 hunting results. So proud yet guilty when I glance through the list. Oh well, this will serve as a motivation to do a few locum shifts in the next month or two. Vanity to the max!
Top:
Levi's shirt
Full Circle shirt
Asos shirt
Diesel shirt
Armani T-shirt
All Saints polo T
All Saints shirt
Jeans and Trousers:
Reiss trousers
Asos trousers
Topman trousers
Diesel Jeans
Polo RL shorts
Asos casual shorts
Shoes:
Aldo loafers x 2
Aldo boots x 2
Topman lace-up
Frank Wright lace-up
Jacket/Cardigan/Jumper:
Topman full length jacket
Topman knitted cardigan
Topman shawl open drapey cardigan
Accessories:
Tissot bracelet watch
Kenneth Cole NY leather strap watch
Paul Smith naked lady belt
Mulberry card holder
Ralph Lauren scarf
Topman scarf
CK briefs x2
Lacoste key chain
H&M bracelet
Bags:
Vivienne Westwood tote
Paul Smith vintage messenger bag
Ted Baker holdall
Reiss casual denim tote
Fragrances and Misc:
Prada Amber pour homme
CDs and DVDs too many to list
Oh and miscellenous stuffs somneto bring home for my family inc clothes, fragrances, accessories, chocolates etc.
P/s Jess: I know you wanted me to upload the photos of these but it's too much effort, so let me know what you wanna look at and I shall send you a link.
Top:
Levi's shirt
Full Circle shirt
Asos shirt
Diesel shirt
Armani T-shirt
All Saints polo T
All Saints shirt
Jeans and Trousers:
Reiss trousers
Asos trousers
Topman trousers
Diesel Jeans
Polo RL shorts
Asos casual shorts
Shoes:
Aldo loafers x 2
Aldo boots x 2
Topman lace-up
Frank Wright lace-up
Jacket/Cardigan/Jumper:
Topman full length jacket
Topman knitted cardigan
Topman shawl open drapey cardigan
Accessories:
Tissot bracelet watch
Kenneth Cole NY leather strap watch
Paul Smith naked lady belt
Mulberry card holder
Ralph Lauren scarf
Topman scarf
CK briefs x2
Lacoste key chain
H&M bracelet
Bags:
Vivienne Westwood tote
Paul Smith vintage messenger bag
Ted Baker holdall
Reiss casual denim tote
Fragrances and Misc:
Prada Amber pour homme
CDs and DVDs too many to list
Oh and miscellenous stuffs somneto bring home for my family inc clothes, fragrances, accessories, chocolates etc.
P/s Jess: I know you wanted me to upload the photos of these but it's too much effort, so let me know what you wanna look at and I shall send you a link.
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