30 May 2009

Friday Night

Where am I?
Who am I?
Who are you?
Do I know you?

Loud thumping bass
Can't hear what you're saying
Pardon me could you speak louder
Oh whatever, I don't care...

Bring me a chair
I'm feeling dizzy
Why am I here at the first place
Oh yea for my gin and tonic and martinis

Pretty faces friendly smiles
Stop staring at me
Stop the room from spinning
I can't stand still at all

Shake your body
Groove it with the music
Hail the genius DJ
Applause to sexy you

Taxi taxi bring me home
Good boys and girls don't drink and drive
The finale of a working week
Friday night oh Friday night!








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22 May 2009

KL = Kuala Lumpur = Kapital of Loitering






I'm in HKL for a 2 months elective. Things are busy in this major city centre hospital, so I was not given too much attention as an elective student. I do learn somthing when I hang around in the wards and clinics, which is optional at this stage as I have just finished my finals. This 2 months are supposed to be a long break before starting my first job. However I still try to go in everyday for at least half a day, just to be around just in case somebody or something interesting walk in through the door.

For most of the days, I leave during lunch time and start my loitering adventure in downtown KL. HKL is just a short bus ride away from the city. The same bus brings me either to Kota Raya area (where petaling street and all the cheap eats are), or Bukit Bintang (where all the high end malls, restaurants and gorgeous denizens of KL inhabit). Since the weather does not encourage outdoor hunting, 8 out of 10 times I would stop at Jalan Bukit Bintang, right in front of Starhill entrance.

Government hospitals are stingy with their air-conditioning, so upon arrival I dash straight into Pavillion, where there air-conditioning is full-blast. Walking along rows of world's top designer's brands such as Gucci, Prada, Bvlgari etc is a motivation booster. It's the place where i can tell myself 'work hard and all these are yours'. Not that I am too keen to own any of the goods, it's just the idea of being able to walk into these shops and grab the first thing I saw is quite comforting lol. One fine day, I will, when I survive my hardcore training and climbed to the top of the hierarchy ladder in the medical world. See, loitering is not too bad after all, it makes one realise what sort of luxurious life can be achieved by working hard and smart. Motivational loitering - an activity not to be missed by young professionals.

After feeling all motivated, it's time to cure the hunger. There are just too much nice food around the area. Spoilt for choices, it normally takes me a while to decide what to have. Coffee normally follows a late lunch. Startbucks is my favourite hangout. Love the Sulawesi and Sumatra brew, black - strong and aromatic and bitter. With a free beverage after every 7 purchases under the loyalty programme, the strategic location in the mall, and good wi-fi coverage, I see no other option. I normally have my laptop with me when I am out to loiter, as the internet back in my temporary residence is still not properly set up after a month, thanks to our efficient TMnet. I also make sure I have a novel in my bag too, for a pleasant read in the comfy environment. Books and coffee in a nice cafe, a sinfully bliss in life!

Dinner time... Having enough luxury treat, time for more local stuffs. I love Jalan Alor at night, with all the food on offer. It's definitely one spot not to be missed in KL, if you are a food addict. Of course that's if you're down-to-earth enough to be eating beside the street! I love the exotic mixtures of smoke, aroma and noise. I'm a locally breed Malaysian, remember?

The American's evil obesity claws have invaded Malaysia recently. Krispy Kream. Their first store in Time Square is still a big hit in town after a month. I certainly cannot resist the temptation of the lovely original glazed. Especially when it's freshly made! 2 doughnuts after dinner... hundreds of miles of jog to burn that off, or I might have to up-size all my shirt and trousers soon!

Half day of loitering is as tiring as a long ward-round physically, but it counteracts all the stress built up in the wards. My adventure always end with a long walk from Bukit Bintang to KLCC LRT station. A 10 minutes journey: Pavillion - Jalan Pinang - KL convention centre - KLCC tunnel - Suria KLCC - LRT Station. Another 20 minutes get me back to my room.

Shower and bed. Or out for supper with my housemates. End of a meaningful day in the Capital of Loitering - Kuala Lumpur!

21 May 2009

Secret





I have a secret
Something not to be mentioned
Something I am tempted to tell
Something people dying to know

I have a secret
Nothing too great
Nothing too big a deal
Nothing really matters

If this secret is not a secret
Will you still talk to me
Will you still care for me
Will I still be who I am

If this secret is not a secret
I will be unleashed
I will be free
I will be me

I am going to tell you a secret
Sometime
Someday
Somehow

20 May 2009

If only






If only I am a little prettier, I would’ve been a supermodel
If only I am a little smarter, I would’ve won the Nobel prize
If only I am a little taller, I would’ve been a basketballer
If only I am a little slimmer, I would’ve fit into that skinny jeans
If only I am a little richer, I would’ve bought a multinational company
If only I am a little stronger, I would’ve conquered the Everest
If only I think a little bit less about if only
I would’ve been a better me





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Absolute Beauty 無與倫比的美麗







A song I came across recently. The piano solo intro grabbed my attention immediately, followed by the crisp and catchy voice of the band vocalist. Then comes the killer lyrics. A simple yet picturesque and romantic lines describing the gives and takes in a relationship, how lovers appreciating each others' inner beauty and strength, helping and supporting each other.

My favourite lines:

你若擔心你不能飛 你有我的蝴蝶
If you're worried that you can't fly, you have my butterfly

(If someday for any reason you can't fly anymore, you have my butterflies, my wings to help you fly again)

我若擔心我不能飛 我有你的草原
If I'm worried that I can't fly, I have your garden

(Similarly, if I am tired of flying someday, I have your garden for a safe landing, a company when I am on the ground)

你知道當你需要個夏天 我會拼了命努力
You know that when you need a summer, I will try my best

(Working hard to make someone happy, to be able to provide, to give without expecting anything back)

我知道你會做我的掩護 當我是個逃兵
I know that you will protect me, like I'm your refugee

(To protect your love ones with what you have, from any harm)

Seems like a few simple lines of words, but the meaning behind it is marvelous, just perfect for a hopelessly romantic me.



無與倫比的美麗 - 蘇打綠

天上風箏在天上飛 地上人兒在地上追
你若擔心你不能飛 你有我的蝴蝶

天上風箏在天上飛 地上人兒在地上追
我若擔心我不能飛 我有你的草原

嘿 嘿 你形容我是這個世界上 無與倫比的美麗
嘿 嘿 我知道你才是這世界上 無與倫比的美麗
嘿 嘿 你知道當你需要個夏天 我會拼了命努力
嘿 嘿 我知道你會做我的掩護 當我是個逃兵

我若擔心我不能飛
嘿 嘿 我有你的草原




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Living in Bubbles

Missy U: ‘Where have you been Alice? You missed your violin lesson last week’

Alice: ‘Sorry teacher, my house was robbed last week, my parents and I were tied up and the robbers took all the money and furniture away.’

Missy U: ‘ Aww, I’m so sorry to hear that, is everyone OK?’

Alice: ‘Yea, our neighbour came over the next day to visit and thought something
was not right, he called the police and we were rescued’

Missy U: ‘Thank goodness, I am glad that everyone is safe. By the way, why did the robbers chose your family to rob? Do you live in a massive house’

Alice: ‘No teacher, I live in a normal house.’

Missy U: ‘Your dad must have a very nice car?’

Alice: ‘No teacher, it is a common car’

Missy U: ‘How common is common?’

Alice: ‘A Porsche’

Missy U: ‘…………’

A real story told by a friend, a very talented pianist/violinist/vocalist who teaches part-time in a music school. Due to the geographical location of the school, most of the kids are descendants of the rich and famous, study in private schools and live in their bubbles of luxury.

Like 99.9% of the population in this country, I am from an average family. We do have our own bubbles determined by each family’s values and background. Most of these bubbles are fragile, they burst when we go into mainstream school at the age of 7.

I wonder how would the world looks like in these Class A luxury bullet-proof bubbles? I am really curious. Would I know how a 10 cents coin looks like? Would I call a shirt a shirt if they are not Ralph Lauren Kids? Would I understand the exotic local ‘manglish’ accent? Would I know the difference between Nasi Lemak served in Mamak stalls and Madam Kwan’s? Would I have the chance to share my lunch with a friend whose parents can’t afford to let him eat in school canteen? Would I know that I am the 0.1% lucky ones? Would I even care to know? Would I ever have the chance to find out?

Well, I guess I will never know. I had a great childhood without my bubbles!


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19 May 2009

The Art of Silence




A charmer at first sight
Funny, intelligent and suave
Unmistakable artistic flair
Too many opinions to share
All personal yet logical
Dull things seem great
Boring events turn colourful
When you are present
A friend worth to keep
I thought
Until an alien arrived from out of space
Kidnapped you with an UFO
No more sight of you
No more word from you
A hello returned with silence
Are you struggling in pain?
Are you rocketing high up in the sky?
No one seems to know
An opinionated artist such as you
One as good as Raphael or Michelangelo
I guess your greatness lies in your art of silence...


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Nomad










If there’s a past life, I believe I was a nomad traveling between the East and the West on the Silk Road. I owned a camel, a tent, a trunk of goodies and spent my whole life fighting the sand storms, searching my next camping ground and slept beneath the stars for many cloudless nights in the desert. I chose not to stay put at one place for too long because I am born to explore and travel and make a living out of it. I was not responsible to anyone but myself and my camel; I earned a living and lived with absolute pride and freedom. I was an adventurer, a wanderer, an unsettled soul forever searching for the next oasis…..

I spent the past 24 years living in several small and big towns/cities. Most due to parents relocating for work, later for my own education. Originating from a small town in the south of Malaysia, I must say that I've got all the wonderful virtues of kampung (village) folks running in my genes. We’re friendly, we’re generous, we’re forgiving, we’re grateful, we’re people-oriented. Until today, I still enjoy saying ' I'm from Segamat', which is usually followed by 'Oh... but sorry where is it?'... which I then happily elaborate 'It's a small town in the north of Johor, a southern state of Malaysia, neighbouring Malacca, half way between Singapore and Kuala Lumpur, we produced lots of durians and rubber, an important town for the primary industry of Malaysia'

Yes, Segamat is my hometown, which in reality I didn't live there for too long. It's where my grandparents and relatives live. I was brought up in the Klang Valley, lived in Shah Alam and Subang Jaya from the age of 1 until 15. Dad's work brought us back to his hometown when I was 15. A drastic change indeed, a city kid moving to a once 'holiday destination' to visit grandma and to play with the cousins. It was initially an interesting change, but the thrill only lasted for a while before I started to miss the city and all my friends there... What's more, I'm the 'new kid from KL' who joined the class in the middle of the year... Thanks to my reasonably good inter-personal skill, I fitted in OK eventually, phew...

15 years old i.e 3rd year in the secondary education was an important year in my country, there's PMR examination which determines our destiny, to either arts or science stream. In a First-World-Wannabe like Malaysia, the latter is more prestigious and more promising than the former. Anyway, a big change at this significant age could be a big threat to my academic future. Reflecting back, if only I haven't got enough self-discipline and a strong mind, I could've flopped... where would I be and what would I be doing now if that was the case? A crossroad I proudly walked past with no fear!

Well, once adjusted, life is good in a small town. No more loitering in big malls after class but wandering in grandma's or uncles' gigantic house with enormous backyards, no more people speaking posh English in Malay classes but Malay in English classes, no more traffic jams on the highway but bumpy country road to school, no more scouts expedition in concrete jungles but in proper tropical forest behind the school. A small change? A big change? Well, I'd say a good change, because I was lucky to have the experience from both sides of the world, at the tender age of 15! Besides, now I have 2 circles of friends in the country, both quite different but similarly wicked! Interestingly these 2 overlap eventually :)

After secondary school, I went off to Singapore for college for 6 months. Massive change again. Singapore is a much bigger metropolis than KL. Small town kid breaking out into the city, hooray! It took no time for the hibernating city kid in me to take control again. I truly enjoyed all the fun and thrill in Singapore, and the intellectually stimulating circle of ASEAN scholars around me :) It's hard to say goodbye to Singapore when I am offered a better deal back home, an all-paid for education package for 7 years in KL and UK.

2 years of A-levels in KL. I was glad to be back in KL again. 2 years in a familiar yet unfamiliar city. 2 years mingling around with the smartest scholars in the country. 2 years of ups-and-down away from my family in a city which I used to call home. 2 years being an out-of-towner when most of my childhood friends are just around the corner. 2 years of learning to be independent. 2 years of total freedom! I did enjoy these 2 years... thanks to all my close buddies, you know who you are :)

After A-levels and securing a place in University, Leicester is where I call home for in the past 5 years. A small town in the midlands of England with a total population of 250, 000, which is roughly the size of Segamat! It’s a humble small town 1.5 hours to the north of London on a train. We Leicesterians walk everywhere, to town, to the university, to the hospital (LRI), to the cinema, to the malls. Bus is optional, only reserved for the lazy ones or when we need to travel further away to the outskirts. It was love at first sight, I fell in love with this decent small town. However 2 years was all it took for me to get bored of it, I started to complain that it is too small a town to enjoy my student life. Hence, weekend trips to London/Birmingham were common. Perhaps medical school has sped up my ageing process, I started to appreciate the slower pace of life in this small town, with everything I need within walking distance. Friends are around the corner, so a spontaneous coffee meet is always possible. Rents are cheaper compare to bigger cities too. Londoners screamed when they find out I pay less than half of their rent for twice the size of their flat, and cried when they visit our market with dirt cheap fruits and vegetables.

University life is coming to an end soon and I am about to start my first job. Where will be my next destination? Haven’t got a clue but it doesn’t really matter. So if I were an unstoppable nomad in my past life, what is going to stop me in my present life?


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You are my eyes






I’ve known this song for ages and I would love to share it. It hits right through the skin into the skeleton into my soul everytime I hear it. A simple yet meaningful Chinese song by a blind taiwanese artist, totally powerful. Some says it's too comercialised, but hey, look at the lyrics and try to feel it, it's not something one write for cash, at least that's what I think...

You are my eyes 你是我的眼 by 蕭煌奇
Translation:

If I could see
I could differentiate the days and the nights
I could hold your hands firmly in the crowd

If I could see
I could bring you for a ride
I could give you a hug from behind

If I could see
Would my life be any different
Maybe what I want, what I like, what I love;
Would be totally different

The darkness ahead of me isn’t black
How fair is the white you described
Is the blue sky above us
The bright blue sky behind the cloud in my memory?

I look at your face
All I can see is nothing
Maybe god has forgotten to roll up the curtain of my eyes…

You are my eyes
Feel me through the change of the seasons
You are my eyes
Lead me through many crowded streets
You are my eyes
Read me through a thousand books
Because you are my eyes
I could see the world right in front of me


如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中牵住你的手

如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后给你一个拥抱

如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样

眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天

我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开

你是我的眼带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界就在我眼前

Link to song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzsAMo51J0U


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18 May 2009

Nocturnal





I have always been a nocturnal creature,
Sun’s down the horizon,
People’s gone to sleep,
Traffic comes to a halt,
The only thing unstoppable is the ticking clock.

What’s better than having this very moment;
When time and space seem to belong only to me?

I don’t share the silence with the construction workers,
I don’t share the night breeze with the sun,
I don’t share the landscape with busy traffic,
I don’t share the stillness with anyone else.

Daytime has too much distractions, way too much,
People are awake for me to talk to,
MSN online list is pages long,
Shops are open for me to loiter in,
People dialing the wrong number,
Mormon missionaries knocking on the door to say how do you do,
Buses and train are running and luring me to escape to another town,
Sometimes the heat makes me dizzy and sleepy.

I love night when I am on my own,
I can read my books without any man-made disturbance,
I can wander around with the worst hair,
I can change the TV channel every five minutes,
I can sit still like a corpse to think without worrying anyone,
I can remain silent when I don’t feel like talking without being called a sociopath.

Too many reasons to love nights,
Hence I am nocturnal,
A proud creature living in the night,
Not to hunt, not to prey, not for any particular reason,
Just because I am,
Only the owls understand…



*An oldies ringing in my mind while writing this:
秋夜 by 白光
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChYZXqwalLw&feature=related


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518

518 - a set of 3 numbers. It can simply be a house number, a password for an email account, a score for some exams/assessments, a secret code for a secret door to access a secret room etc etc... or a memorable date, such as the date of birth of this blog...

4 weeks in KL now, on my elective in HKL. A simple 30 days stay in this familiar yet unfamiliar city, i've met lots of interesting people - old friends I keep in touch regularly, old friends I've lost contact for a while and got back in touch recently, new acquaintance, colleagues in the hospitals, patients in the wards, strangers on the street. Each of you has given me some inspiration in a way or another, and for some reasons some of you has inspired me to start writing - to shout my opinions out loud, to write about my trips and journey, to show off all the nice food I've sampled, to share good photo shots, or simply to keep a journal for myself...

With studies and exams all at the back of my head now, and with lots of free time to kill, I managed to resurrect my hibernating inquisitive and sensitive self, to open up my eyes to see what's around me, to think, to enjoy the fragrance of a simple mug of black coffee, to not complain about the extreme heat and humidity of my wonderland (KL), to reflect more on what I have done in the past, and to think about the present and future, to think about of what I want to be and what I don't want to be, to relax, to live a carefree life in one of the most hectic cities in this region, to be myself, to dream about the impossibles, to appreciate the touchable reality... to WANDER in REALITY... A simple yet meaningful title that just came into my mind when I decided to start a blog in a local Starbucks...

I'm about to turn 25, that's a quarter of a hundred, that's 1/3 of a lifetime of most Malaysians, 1/4 of the Japaneses. I'm about to start a wonderful life in a wonderful career with lots of stories to see to tell and to share. I'm about to live my life the way I've been planning and dreaming of. It's about time to start jotting down bits and pieces that I experience in life, just in case (hopefully not) I get hit by early onset dementia and go cuckoo... with this at least I could spend my days in a psychiatry ward reading about my wonderful past :)

Things always happen in the least unexpected consequences. Just like this one, it didn't take 42 weeks to be nurtured in a womb, it didn't take 5 years of hardwork and torture to be completed, just a tall Sumatra brew, free wifi, some incidental inspirations and a lot of free time :) I am not sure how long this baby can live, it's got some inborn metabolic errors such as laziness, temporary brain malfunction, lousy internet connection, too many on-calls, being away for holidays, and alas alcohol intoxication lol!

Join me for a wonderful journey, what else is more fascinating than to wander in the reality?!








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